Mariah DeMarco

Illustration Friday - {Parade}

ok, so time for a confession...

 I can not draw profiles.. 

well, I can't draw them well anyway.  I always draw people facing front... never from the side.. major problem if I'm ever to become a Children's Illustrator...

well, I've been working hard to get more comfortable with it .. the thing is, if I had a job that required 50 different poses included side views, I know I could do it... it's just not easy for me... and.. 

are you ready for confession #2?  

All my life, I thought that if something was not super easy for you, then you were no good at it.  For instance, if I admit that drawing profiles was difficult for me, then.. I'm not really an artist or illustrator, or worse yet..I shouldn't try to become one.... at which point, my heart would shatter into a million sad little pieces..

So... yeah, I *know* better now.. but its a haunting thing and it feels like I'm always pushing it back... telling myself it's ok if I can't draw something instantly & perfectly right away.  So, I did not shy away from the profile this time.. I faced it and this is what came out of it!  Not terribly bad, definitely not easy.. . but that's ok.  ^_^   I hope you enjoy it!  xoxoxoxox, Mariah

Today's verdict: "Cute's all she's got."

Man, today's been a rough day (artistically speaking).  All these doubts about my work... all this sadness about my drawings not being good, fear of them being boring.... Today I've been struggling with what I like to call, "The cute effect" : I like cute things, I draw cute things and typically am known for my 'cute'...and almost all of the time, that's so wonderful and I am so happy about it!  I mean, I'm known for something nice, and that's great, right?  But, sometimes.. every once in a while I start feeling suffocated by 'the cute'  I start feeling like people think I'm all sunshine and rainbows all the time.. . and that I dont have a dark or sexy bone in me... I dont know why that bothers me..... but sometimes... every so often... once in a great while...  it does. ...and today, is one of those days... It's when I feel the fine artist in me struggling with the cute... and dark clouds begin to brew behind my eyes...   I think that I fear people will pass by my work thinking the only thing I've got is "cute" - when there is so much more here...  I dunno.  I'll probably delete this post... it's not very becoming I suppose...